I truly and deeply believe that everything and everyone you encounter in your life has a purpose. The idea of sharing my story/feelings was always frowned upon in my upbringing. If you "aired your dirty laundry" you were either just looking for attention or you were just looking for attention. I came from a family of "secrets," and I'm sure there were several others around us that dealt with issues the same way. It would never come to a surprise for me to hear about something a family member had gone through months or years after the event was over because in my family we just didn't talk about the "hard stuff". Now that's not to say we had any huge scandals' to hide, we just didn't share our difficult problems with each other. For example: I remember the day I found out my Grandmother was "now in remission" from breast cancer. (look of astonishment with jaw dropped) I didn't even know she had had breast cancer! Clear as day I recall asking my mom, "why didn't she want us to know? I could have been there for her so she knew how much I love and support her." But those were just the ways our family handled our "secrets"... alone.
So I guess me telling you about some very difficult moments in my life is pretty scary for me but the thing is, if I can help just one woman feel as though they are not alone in what they are feeling or going through themselves, then I know this was all worth my fears.
I also don't want this to seem like a long list of sob stories. Because honestly, at the end of the day, each of these experiences has made me who I am and I’ve come out stronger and wiser through all of them. And I’d like to repeat the part about “I’ve come out of them”- because that is the point- we can grow and move on from even the most difficult life moments.
My intentions for these posts are first and foremost to help anyone reading them feel more at ease knowing they are not alone. That someone else knows exactly how you feel and there is light at the end of the journey. But if in fact someone reading this still feels lost or alone- I want this to be a community of women you can lean on, talk to and vent with. Because in the Bella’s Community we always find our beautiful.
I hope you will join me on my journey and the journey of other “Bellas” that have difficult yet inspiring stories to share. I look forward to reading your comments, insights and constructive wisdom though our path. Finally, I wish and pray for one day you to share your story too.